Thursday, October 18, 2012

Discouraging Day

First thing this morning they had to move Sunni's PICC line from her arm to her leg because it had moved again and was causing irritation.  I really hope this one lasts longer than a day.

They had to add the tube back to her mouth that sucks junk out of her belly.  They had taken it out when she was extubated day before yesterday bc it was not getting much out.  Well....it came back.

She has had a lot of fluid on her lungs and a lot more drainage from her chest tube than normal.   That was all enough to concern me this morning and then the doc told us her white blood count was high this morning which might be the sign of infection but they didn't want to give antibiotics just yet.  The reason being that she needed all the good bacteria in her body and they didn't want to kill it if not necessary....that's how I understood it anyway.  She is actually back up on meds and the vent because of this set back.  She was super uncomfortable all day.

Her X-Ray did not get any worse and her vitals along with her gasses were good so they are watching her closely for more signs of infection.  Please pray this is not the case!  They said the white blood cell count could be due to stress/pain.  I am very worried.  Of course the worrier and pessimist comes out in me.

No clothes today.... But soon!.....

12 Days Old

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

11 Days Old--Rest

Sunni got to rest today!

X-Rays showed that she has quite a bit of fluid on her lungs so they gave her some Lasix to try and flush some of it out.  They have been sucking yuck out of her lungs all day.  They think this might have been the reason she was not able to transition to CPAP yesterday.  They decided to mostly let her rest today but they did go down on the narcotics a little bit.  They played with the vent settings a bit to make her more comfortable and to let her lungs expand a little bit. She had a really good day comfort wise and nothing major happened...so I would call it a good day!


When we first got there she was wide eyed, awake, and super alert.  Shawn got to hold her for 2 hours!!  She LOVED it (and so did he).  Her eyes are SO big and beautiful.  She had them as wide as they would go.  I've never seen anything more precious in my life.  And I got the pics to prove it..........


Big beautiful eyes.  So alert!

Looking at Daddy
The nurses told us that she could wear clothes if we wanted to bring some.....so be looking for that in the next couple days.   We actually got to go buy some today!  Yay!  I love pink.

Please keep praying for my Sunni girl.  Look how far they have got her!  Please pray for her lungs to clear up and be strong.  Also pray to keep infection away.  I know that is usually a really big deal for these babies in the hospital.  Thank you! :)

Tuesday, October 16, 2012

1 Step Forward, 2 Steps Back

Sunni's nurses and the doc set two goals for her today:

1.  Come down on the Versed (for anxiety) and Morphine (for pain).
2.  Come down off the Vent and get on CPAP.


When we got to the hospital today they had already lowered both of those medications and she was wide eyed, awake, and doing really well.  So well that she seemed like a normal baby that lays there comfortably, alert, and reaching around.  I was SO happy.  It felt like such a relief to see her like that.  They said that if her gasses they took at 2 looked good they were going to switch over from the vent to cpap.  And they were.  The numbers were "beautiful."

The doc said that her numbers were so good she wanted to try her out on the nasal cannula and skip right over CPAP.  So we got our cameras out and were ready to see Miss Sunni's face/mouth for the first time.  We were SOO excited!  They extubated her (pulled the "straw" out of her throat) and put in the nose cannula.  Within less than a minute we knew that was not going to work.  She started having trouble breathing and looked really uncomfortable and just not herself.  She was very panicky.

They decided to go ahead and try the CPAP but she didn't improve and her heart rate was going down so they had to immediately intubate her again.  I was so scared because she looked so distressed.  They gave her some more Versed to calm her down and that worked pretty well but she was still not showing good vitals.  I got to hold her again to see if that would work.  45 more minutes of happiness!  It worked a little but she got restless again so they upped her Morphine.  Then she was able to rest.

That all really wore her out and she had to go back up on the vent and back up on the meds for the rest of the day (and was still up at 10 when we left).  I really despise this roller coaster that we are on.  It seems like  if you have a really good day that will only lead to something bad happening.  Ugh!  So frustrating.

When they took an X-Ray tonight to make sure the tube got put back in the right spot they found out the PICC line had shifted and was now in the wrong spot so it had to be readjusted.  Poor baby!  I wish daddy and I could take some of her pain.

 So that was today in the life of Sunni.  Started out a great day and ended up a step backwards.  Praying for a better day tomorrow!  Even though the extubating experience was terrifying for me---I loved seeing her face with no tape and no tubes.  She is just beautiful......



No Tape!  No Tubes!  Beautiful!

Sunni Nicole :)

Monday, October 15, 2012

Holding Sunni :)

I got to hold my baby girl today!!  It was awesome.  She slept the entire time but I loved every minute of it.  45 minutes of pure happiness.  Waiting 9 days to hold your baby seemed a lot longer than it sounds.

Shawn and I were a little later than normal getting to the hospital because we actually slept REALLY good for the first time in a while.  They said that her co2 levels were getting better and better.  BUT the belly button lines where they gave nutrients, meds, and drew blood from could no longer be used so they had to take them out.  These only last about 10 days so it was not a surprise.  Now they have to prick her poor little heel for blood (was every 6 hours at first but got turned into every 8 since her gasses were improving).  And then the part I didn't like AT ALL was they had to put in a PICC line through her arm (where we normally get blood drawn from) that runs all the way to right above her heart.  They said that was going to be for nutrients and meds and that it was better on the risks of infection.  So she had that "procedure" done this evening.  They gave her pain meds though and she was pretty much knocked out the entire time.  It still made  mommy nervous and sad that she already had to go through more pain.

Backtracking a little--She was SUPER feisty this morning so they had to swaddle her tightly with blankets so she didn't try yanking things out of her body.  She was still restless so they decided to let me hold her.  I was on cloud 9 of course but it helped her too.  She fell asleep and was calm for the rest of the day.

When we went back up there after shift change daddy got to hold Miss Sunni too!  She is probably going to be a daddy's girl---or daddy thinks so anyway.

We had a great day and feel a little more like mommy and daddy today!  We sure love that little girl.  Thank you for the continued prayers, love, and support.

We love showing her off..........
God is Good!

Right where she should be....

Daddy's Girl

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Sunni Nicole

This past week has been a whirlwind!  If you are a Facebook friend some of this will be old news but I am going to try to be a little more detailed although I cant remember 90% of whats happened.  Crazy, I know.

First of all---SHE'S HERE!!!  Sunni Nicole was born on October 6th at 12:25am.  She was 6 lbs. 9 oz. and 19.5 inches long.  She came out crying.  They swept here away to a little room connected to mine and immediately intubated her.  Daddy got to watch while I was still trying to figure out what was going on.  Miss Sunni was supposed to wait til Monday to come when I was supposed to be induced but she had other plans. I went from an 8 to a 10 in minutes so there was no time for an epidural.  OUCH!  That's all I have to say about that.

We waited til about 3:30 am to see her.  There were nurses, drs, and medical teams all over her.  It was very scary.  I was halfway delirious so honestly I do not remember much other than she was one of the 3 most beautiful things I have ever seen.  They said she was doing pretty good considering.  We saw her again around 7 that morning and they had put her on an oscillator which was supposed to be more gentle but it was loud and kind of scary (it went really fast--Shawn says 100 pumps per minute but I cant verify).  They said her heart was having some issues and they weren't getting it to squeeze hard enough and the echo looked like her aorta was narrow and one of the valves was not functioning properly.  She was on Nitric Oxide and many, many, many drugs.  That first day they basically played with her numbers using drugs and different setting on vents and said they were going to try to keep from going on ECMO but her body was not oxygenating the bottom portion of her body and she was working really hard to keep up with everything so it was still a big possibility.

Day 2--Sunday, October 7th.  ECMO Day.  I was still in the hospital just waking up when the phone rang.  The nurse told me that Sunni had to be put on ECMO because she was working herself too hard and her heart and lungs needed a rest.  We needed to get up there right away to see her before they started.  We walked in to once again a whole medical team, a HUGE machine, and my baby girl.  I am glad Shawn was there to hear anything they had to say because I couldn't stop bawling.  I did not want this to happen because while ECMO saves lives it is also very risky.  ECMO is a heart/lung bypass machine that takes blood out of the body, takes carbon dioxide out of the blood, puts oxygen into the blood, and circulates it back into your body.  They have to cut into the carotid artery in your neck and stick tubes all the way down to your heart.  This scared me to death!  Thankfully the surgery to cannulate went well and she was stable for the rest of the day.  Her numbers improved immediately and she was able to rest.

Day 3--Monday, October 8th.  Sunni was very stable today.  She rested most of the day.  I was discharged and we left the hospital for the first time.  I hated leaving without my baby.  That was really hard.  We did get to spend time with our boys though.  The were in town all week with my mom and I was glad to get to see them.  Sunni had an "uneventful" day which was really nice.

Day 4--Tuesday, October 9th.  Today was more of the same "uneventfulness" that we are growing to love.  She was having some blood pressure issues but they were able to control it with medication.  We found out that she would be having surgery early in the morning the next day so that gave us something to worry about. We also met a lady named Julie that had a 4 week old daughter in the same room with us that also had CDH and a similar story to ours.  It was really nice and comforting to talk to her the night before surgery and she helped calm a lot of our fears.  Her baby is doing really well.

Day 5--Wednesday, October 10th.  REPAIR SURGERY We woke up early to see Miss Sunni before her surgery started.  I was mostly nervous about bleeding since she was on so much blood thinners (the ECMO machine gets clots which can be very very bad).  The surgery had to be done bedside because moving the ECMO machine would be too risky.  Soo.....after surgery we found out that her hernia was pretty large (on the left side) and abnormally shaped.  They had to put a big patch in and had to get real creative on stitching it in.  They could not fit all the contents that were in her chest into her abdomen so they had to put them in a cone like thing called a silo and that was on the outside of her body.  The plan was to let her body do its thing (fluid levels even out and swelling to go down) and in a few days see if the intestines would fit in the abdomen to where they could close her up.  The dr said she will most likely have really bad acid reflux because her diaphragm was gone around the part that keeps acid from going  up.  They were not able to put everything back in the right spots (like a normal bodies anatomy) because her liver had shifted and took over.  She did pretty well for the rest of this day.  She was very sedated and seemed to be resting comfortably.

Day 6--Thursday, October 11.  SURGERY #3 That morning we walked in and the surgeon had just made her rounds.  She was checking out the incision and silo and "irritated" it (squeezed it).  They could not get it to stop bleeding (blood thinners) so they ended up having to do an emergency type surgery.  Her spleen had been damaged and that was what was causing the bleeding.  They called on the team to decide whether they should remove it or repair it.  I was scared to death.  I know you can live without your spleen but generally people get sick a lot easier without it because it produced anti-bodies.  I know she is already going to be more susceptible to getting sick because she will have lung issues.  I was praying for a repair.  Praise God---our prayers were answered.  They ended up repairing her spleen and got all her intestines back in and she was sewn all up.  That poor baby is going to be SOO tough!  She had been through so much in 6 days.  She did get to rest that day and all was more peaceful after that.  I was relieved to have her insides back on the inside.  I believe that happened for a reason.....not sure why, but I do.

Day 7--Friday, October 12.  They trialed Sunni off ECMO today.  They were impressed by the numbers they got and were thinking they may take her off but the head surgeon made the final call to let the poor baby rest since she has had 2 big days right in a row.  I agreed 100% with that choice.  She got to rest on this day!

Day 8--Saturday, October 13.  She was trialed off ECMO twice this day and had alright numbers but not good enough to come off for good.  She had a good day but I could tell she was starting to feel pain.  She screams but no sound comes out because the tubes down her mouth are between her vocal cords.  It is the most heartbreaking thing for me.  I cant hold her or comfort her.  All I can do is watch.  We really can not even touch her much because it makes her blood pressure go crazy.  They gave morphine to her every 2 hours or as needed if she went longer.  She was very alert today and we got a lot of good pictures of her pretty eyes.  I am in love!

Day 9--Sunday, October 14.  OFF ECMO  She trialed off ecmo and her numbers were good except her co2 levels.  They had an echo on her heart done at the same time as the trial off to see how it was working.  It looked great.  The head surgeon said if co2 was all they were concerned about that it was time to take her off ECMO.  She was successfully decanulated by 12:45.  We had to leave for that of course.  When we came back in that HUGE machine was gone, the tubes out of her neck were gone, and I could see my baby much better.  She has had a pretty good day today after getting off ecmo other than the co2 but they are working on that and the numbers are getting much better. YAY!  Her dr said we might get to hold her in a couple of days.


I hope most of that made sense.  I know the grammar and wording could use some help but I am SO tired and exhausted but I knew I better update and get this written or me myself would forget.  I am definitely leaving out the details.  This has been the craziest roller coaster of my life.  Just when you think you can breathe something happens.  Shawn and I are doing ok.  We are finally staying in the big Ronald McDonald House here in Houston and it is really nice.  The one in the hospital is not all that bad but you have to check in and check out everyday and not really know if you will have a room for sure that night.  But here at the big one we can stay 45 consecutive days and we have out own space (that locks!).  You can not drink in your room--which totally stinks---thats my gripe.  Shawn's gripe is that we have chores! lol  We have to sweep the dining room floor, which is huge, and wipe all the tables.  But all in all I like it here so far.  In the very distant future I would like to become involved somehow with the one in Amarillo.  You never think about places like this until you need it!  Its a great place!

A few hours old

First pic after going on ECMO (swollen)

My Pretty Princess with a Mohawk

Already got daddy wrapped around her fingers

Coop, Daddy, & Sunni

So alert!  My fav pic to date!

Beautiful

After ECMO
Anyway---now that I have Internet access and a laptop I will be able to update more often.  Hopefully after 3 surgeries Sunni will decide to take it a little more easy and we will be on the road to recovery!

Friday, September 28, 2012

The Big Day!

                As most of you know I left my home on Monday (Wow! 5 Days seems like weeks already!) to relocate to Houston for the rest of my pregnancy.  I wont whine too much since most of you have already heard all about it on Facebook, lol.  (IT IS HOT!!!)
                 The week before I left I found out how caring, loving, and giving the people around me are!  My coworkers surprised me with a sweet little going away prayer and very generous offering that will help Shawn and I SO much!  I was  floored and blown away by it all.  And not only that but they have been cooking for my little family every night that I have been gone as well.  It brings tears to my eyes just thinking about how much these ladies (and 1 guy) are supporting me, praying for me and my family, and just showing how loving people can be in difficult times.  I am really just speechless!  I cant find the right words to express my appreciation for all of them and everything they have done and are doing for me.  I definitely plan on returning the favor when I am able.  The very next day the mothers from my morning class brought me a HUGE basket filled with goodies.  Again, I could never say thank you enough to really express how much that touched me and how thankful I am!
                  Leaving was hard but I know Sunni is where she needs to be to have the best chance possible.  I had all of my appointments today and this is the story in a nutshell:  She only weighs 5 pounds, 14 ounces---which I thought was alarming since she was 5.2 a little over 2 weeks ago.  I just knew she was over 6 lbs.  Her heartbeat was 120 which again made me a little nervous but they were not worried......  And FINALLY, the BIG NEWS is that I will stay the night in the hospital Sunday, October 7th and they will induce early morning on the 8th!  So we should see Little Miss Sunni in 10 days!  I can not believe the time is already so close but I am so ready to get this started and meet my little girl.  CDH has changed my life and although I really despise it I can not change it and I am ready to see what God has planned for me, Sunni, and my family.
                 Please keep praying for us.  I know God is listening.  Please pray for her heart and lungs and a safe delivery.  Pray that things go smoothly and she gets ventilated and up to NICU with no major issues.  Thank you in advance.  I know there are thousands of you praying out there and that is so comforting!  

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

35 Weeks

Well.....the plane ticket has been gotten.  I am leaving on Monday, September 24th for Houston.  I should have like a million appointments the week I get there; like an OB apppointment,  neo consult, NICU tour, social work consult (whatever thats for--idk?), sono, etc etc.

I am HOPING that they will schedule an induction date so that Shawn will have plenty of time and notice to get there.  You would think that they would have to schedule it so that the medical team could be there and ready.  (CDH moms---was that the case with you?) I am due October 18th but hoping it is a little before that.

I am getting really nervous, sad, scared---mainly about leaving my boys.  I know Shawn will be ok and that I will see him in a few weeks.  But I hate the thought of being away from them for SO long.  I think I will be a mess driving to the airport that day.  I tear up just thinking about it.

Sunni is doing well.  I have had a weekly sonogram which has been great.  We got some AWESOME pictures of her last week on my birthday.  It made me SO excited to see her.  Today she weighed 5 lbs 2 oz which is a definite good thing.  I am thinking over 8lbs by the time she is here?  I have one more appointment next week in Amarillo and then I am done.  She has been practicing "breathing" way better and more often since the last time I posted.  She even got hiccups for the first time a couple nights ago.  It made me smile.

I have had a tremendous amount of people ask what they can do for me.  The answer is "I am not really sure."  And that's the truth.  A friend just asked me earlier today about meals and my friends signing up to bring food to the boys and Shawn while I am gone.  That was really sweet.  I will see what happens with that and let everyone know.  The only other way I can think of to help is that if you are someone that comes in contact with my kiddos please give them extra loving.  and if you are really feeling energetic you might could take them off my moms hands for a while to play.

I know I always say this but THANK YOU SO MUCH FOR YOUR PRAYERS!  I feel them everyday.  I have already become a stronger person and know half of that is all of you standing beside me and praying for me.  Please pray for this transition my family will be making in a little over a week.  Also pray for Sunni and her heart and lungs.  Thank you all :)

I will probably update a few more times before Sunni actually arrives but when she does get here I will keep everyone posted almost daily.  I read tons of CDH blogs and it has really helped me become aware and prepared for what is to come.  I hope to do the same for other moms after me.  I also want to keep my family, friends, and coworkers updated as much as possible.

And now here she is, my precious baby girl, Sunni Nicole :)